This is one of the primary reason I do not go on facebook - too many memories. Realization of the fact that the high school years are gone. All four of them, all the smiles, tears, drama, emotions... It's a different world now. We're only getting older and older. I want to go back. Go back to the time when my dad was alive. After having a most amazing day I find myself on my bed with tears ready to roll down my cheeks because the past means a time before he died. For some reason I just wanted to put on that sad depressing song. Everyone has one of those, the ones that are representative of a certain time of their life, the song that is always skipped in the iTunes because it is too much to bare. Well for once, I wanted to put on that song and feel all the pain.
Life is an abstract concept.. We are born into this world, in the end we die. Between those two we have some 70 years to occupy the planet if we're lucky. 80% (I assume) of us will be raised by at least one if not two parents, go to school, go to college, graduate, get a job, get married... same bullshit over and over again. No wonder people turn to drugs and alcohol to deal with their fucking life. It sucks.
I do not want to have children. I don't need the lecture on the importance of continuing your generation and blah blah blah. Bringing a child into this world maybe an emotional experience, but it is alco a cliche. You become just one of the many others blending into the crowd. A mother, a wife, a caregiver. My opinion on the subject is if you're taking care of one being, why not take care of the whole planet? Why not make a name, make the money, contribute to charity, work on world peace. We're too wrapped up in personal instincts and too wrapped up in this innovation of technology. What percentage of cell phones on the market has touch screens now? And when the hell did touch screens come out? I can tell you for sure it was while I was in high school. What took the world population many years to accomplish in technology advancement now takes only months if not a year or two. We're moving to fast and I am getting the spidey sense (got that from Cody) that this cannot lead to now good. It's too much, too fast and I would not be surprised if the world ended in 2012. How can this planet handle us with our electricity and manipulation of resources, our Wall Street and our iPhones. Doesn't anyone ever think that maybe life was better a little bit ago, that perhaps we should have stopped once we got our computers and our instant access to whatever we want... I mean 3D freaking cameras for recreational (not professional) use. And by the prices (yes, a regular laptop goes for 500 dollars now a days with warranty) we can see how fast all these new things lose value.

Now that I am completely and utterly depressed I don't even need no freaking songs. I am going to go take a shower.