I try not to let most things phase me, but this does. Lying, cheating, scamming individuals who think they are so sly. Or perhaps not, but do not give you the benefit of the doubt that you can see straight through their lies. Well, I have something to say to you, my dear friend, fuck you and your plans.

As for other individuals that I wish to get out of my head and am hopelessly stuck on... I give up. I don't want to go there, ruin all my perfect fancies with awkwardness and ruined friendships, scandals. Not worth it. Anticipate 50% heart ache in the future. *Let it be however your soul interprets this script...*

I want Colorado and warm weather and long nights ... sunrise and coffee and to drown in perfection of time. I don't give Kris half the credit he deserves, for how sweet he is to me, even when I don't deserve it... *You're Venus, I am Earth, oh Eva how much I loved you.*

Let fall sit where it is. I'm not anxious to leave, I'll have all the time in the world to enjoy the fruits of Salisbury. I want to finish school and have a long summer. Work as much as I can, go back to Europe for a bit. Finally face myself before the graves of my loved ones, find out who I really am.

Anxiousness and tranquility are an odd combination. I wonder if it is explosive. Guess I'll find out tonight.

*Lonely, lonely, I am so lonely.... пусть всё будет как решит монолог твоей души.*